I got my dog Casper from Seamer horse fair in the summer of 1996, i'd gone there with my mother and my 3 children for a day out, i didn't want a dog so when the gypsy with 3 grey hound puppies tied together with bailing twine asked me if i wanted to buy one i said "no thank you" he said "go on it's only £25 quid" the puppies were malnourished and dirty but as i went to move away one grabbed the bottom of my trousers and wouldn't let go, he chose me
i offered the gypsy £10 "take it or leave it" he took it, when i got my to my mother she was furious "you need a puppy like a hole in the head, take it back" i gave her the puppy and said "you take him back" she couldn't
i had recently split up from my husband (the first split of many) and had 3 kids under five, i made an irresponsable decision and it was the best thing i've ever done, Casper has been my best friend, he seen me through many disasters in my life, he's always been there for me, (kept my duvet on the bed at night)
3 years ago he developed a tumour on his foot, it was operated on, he was very poorly after the op and we thought we would lose him, i asked the vet if if the tumour would come back, he said it might do, i made a decision then that if it did i wouldn't put Casper through another op, it has come back, Casper has an appointment at the vets this afternoon, he's an old dog now and i think i'm going to leave it up to the vet to decide if we operate again or put him to sleep, i thought i would know what to do if this happened, i don't
i don't want him to suffer but i really really don't want to lose him.