Hello Mrs B,
I hope you are feeling a little better today. Our sadness and grief comes out of the blue and ambushes us sometimes, doesn't it? Like you, I like to go out into the garden, preferably to sit alongside something that smells wonderful, and just take some time out to reflect on all the things that I have to be grateful for. I do believe that we shouldn't bottle up our sadness, and if the tears flow, just let them. Someone once told me that it doesn't really get better, but it does get different. Meantime we just do the best we can, we put on a brave face, but it's rather like whistling a happy tune and we hide what we are really feeling.
Thinking of you and sending you a huge, virtual hug and just to remind you that even if you sometimes feel very lonely and sad we are all here for you.